nonsense babbling

2010-04-28T22:04:00.000-07:00

frustration mixed with confusion.

2010-03-29T19:43:00.001-07:00

life is good.
having the sun out for an hour longer may have helped.
but life is good.
i hope this feeling stays.

2010-01-28T16:31:00.000-08:00

you know that feeling like youre gasping for air? thats how i feel during finals. i just want to breathe with no worries. i'll have to wait til tomorrow.

they ease the pain.

2010-01-14T18:24:00.000-08:00

yoga, youre back into my life now. i'm so sorry i've been away for so long. i've had a small affair with school, but dont worry, i thought of you the whole time. and when we met again tuesday, i was reminded of why i loved you so. youre my escape. despite meeting your horribly fast-pace friend, pilates, i enjoyed our date. and now i have another date with you today, oh how i am looking forward to it. i hope our relationship lasts, and maybe you'll keep me sane through finals week. i love you dearly.
-tiff le

2010-01-05T21:56:00.000-08:00

i don't know if its possible, but i may have had that moment where i discovered what i wanted to do with my life. or maybe i'm just delusional. probably. but who knew a talk with someone could do that. well whatever i do, i hope it'll make her proud. because thats the least i can do. she deserves much more. i love my mom.

2009-10-10T14:06:00.000-07:00

diggin a hole
and the walls are caving in, behind me
airs getting thin but i'm trying, i'm breathing in
come find me
it hasn't felt like this before
it hasn't felt like home, before you
i know it's easy to say, but it's harder to feel
this way
i miss you m0re than i should, then i thought i could
can't get my mind off you
-joshua radin

2009-07-07T18:30:00.000-07:00

things i await to do this summer:

1.) fix those rough patches.
2.) stubborn bulges, byebye.
3.) always have derek in mind.
4.) focus focus focus!
5.) camps, go big or go home.
6.) master crow.
7.) learn to dance like michael.

wow, you're gorgeous.

2009-06-13T13:23:00.000-07:00

ah how pathetic.
i was so excited for summer, that i forgot everything i loved about sophomore year is over.
no more penhall or fitz, and my beloved classmates.
its the first day of summer, and i already read all my yearbook messages.
and now i miss everyone
):

2009-06-04T17:17:00.000-07:00

i'm feeelin blue. :/

2009-05-31T12:09:00.000-07:00

happiest music on earth
amazing show.
thanks to everyone who came!

10 days left.
then the beautiful 11 weeks of summer.

can't wait to be tan again(;

2009-05-25T20:18:00.000-07:00

spent the last 20 minutes explaining to a 4 year-old why the "s" is silent in island.
and still, he refuses to listen, and says iceland.
hmm..
then he told me that he'll make the vacuum suck up my face.
i love you justin.

2009-05-22T23:15:00.000-07:00

happy almost birthday, youu.
tonight was fun. g'night.

2009-05-20T20:21:00.000-07:00

what's done is done.

is it stalker-ish to follow everything zach braff writes online?
hahaha

ah i love you.

2009-05-18T17:01:00.000-07:00

spent yesterday as a groupie to my extremely talented cousins.
sooo cute(;

and this one's for becksters

2009-05-14T21:51:00.000-07:00

i'm a bit frustrated with myself. as of right now, everything is going well (knock on wood). yet i find myself wanting to mope about things i thought i got over. i guess i'm nitpicky, somehow able to find a flaw in something great. all these opportunities are opening up and i keep making excuses. there are relationships i wanna patch up, but instead i'm avoiding them.

i am my own worst enemy.

2009-05-08T21:55:00.000-07:00

SWEET RELIEF
thats all i've got to say.

corepower yoga, jack shephard, john dorian, taraneh daghighian, we have lots of catching up to do.

2009-05-04T20:19:00.000-07:00

while i procrastinate, listen to jon schmidt.

2009-05-01T22:21:00.000-07:00

i'm melting away,
and all i have left is half accurate information of european history.
shouldn't i be enlightened by now or something?
oh well.

he's adorable.

2009-04-28T16:09:00.000-07:00

i thought about my strengths and weaknesses, and i realized,
i'm good at math.
but where is that gonna get me?
hmm...
-----
hah i take that back.
got owned by the alg2 star testing.
back to square one.

2009-04-25T15:06:00.000-07:00

i am not so good under stress.
and i find every possible way to relieve myself from it, avoiding work.
but that work that doesn't get done stresses me out.
so i am just in one big cycle of endless stress.
my room's a mess, my head's a mess, and i can't think straight.
sorry to those who are around me, because i'm not myself.

this little one makes it better though.

catching up on life.

2009-04-18T16:23:00.000-07:00

leaving somewhere for two weeks can make you realize two things

you wanna be where everyone knows your name (thank you cheers theme song)
you'll crave for things you never cared for at home

paris was spectacular, but i missed home.

highlights:

and yet, now that i'm home, i'm drowning in make-up work.
and ap testing is coming up.
good bye weekends, hello textbooks.

2009-03-31T20:09:00.000-07:00

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
april first to the twelfth.

2009-03-19T21:12:00.000-07:00

every day, i'm a step closer to becoming a yogi. and it feels so good.
yoga felt great today. everything that could have possibly gone wrong gets erased.
peace, alone with my thoughts.
and its fun taking a class with a bunch of senior citizens, an escape from the teenagers i see every day.

bakasana, i'm almost there! and thank you jade for helping me.

off subject, but mayer speaks the truth!
"pain throws your heart to the ground,
love turns the whole thing around.
fear is a friend who's misunderstood,
but i know the heart of life is good."
summer of 07

2009-03-18T19:53:00.000-07:00

i need to start making things happen for myself, and stop being so chicken!

i love you i love you i love you!

2009-03-11T20:11:00.000-07:00

where did all my dreams go?
not exactly talking about aspirations, but more like those imaginary second-lives we lead at night.
gone. disappeared into thin air, or something.
and why?
is it because my exhausted mind is too tired to wander off at night?
how sad.
and i miss those dreams, or nightmares, or whatchamacallits.
it kept me sane, it kept me young.
now i feel like a boring ol' booger who lives for school and sleep.
blaaaahhhhhh.

and i accidently used mouthwash as handsoap today at yoga! ah fml.

2009-03-08T12:03:00.000-07:00

10 years, and still going.

brother: you guys are gayer than me and daeniel.

thanks, steven? haha

2009-02-28T18:34:00.000-08:00

nothing turned out as how i thought it would.
i'm just waiting to get to that high part of the roller coaster.

2009-02-23T21:28:00.000-08:00

ahh my body aches.

and it feeeels so good.

yoga with taraneh, i hope this isn't just a phase.

gah, i think fountain valley needs more blackouts, randomly throughout the year.

you get to do things you'd never do with electricity on!

i think i'm good livin like the amish for awhile.
especially spending blackouts with these goobers.

2009-02-17T18:49:00.000-08:00

finished count of monte cristo today.
"there is neither happiness nor unhappiness in this world; there is only the comparison of one state with another."
can't be more right, dantes.
&

am i gonna have to beg someone to watch this with me?
come on, how can you say no to that face.

2009-02-14T23:31:00.000-08:00

good day, i'd have to say.

highlights:

30 cents, whaaatta deal!

i need to get me some popper pants.

and hanging out with steven, akash and trace wasn't too bad either. (;

2009-02-13T18:32:00.000-08:00

i thought we were on the same page.
i thought i could trust you.
i thought you were better than this.
i thought this could of been avoided.
i thought you were different.
i thought you knew.
i wish you cared.

slipping away, one by one.

sundays with pappie

2009-02-08T18:54:00.000-08:00

every sunday, i learn something new from my dad.

he'll always start off with mentioning some chinese proverb.

today, it was, "one grain of sand stuck in your shoe can affect your whole journey."

knowing i had no idea what he meant, he compared the phrase to his favorite movie "Game Plan".

hahaha, i think he likes this movie so much because he thinks he's the rock, and i'm the little girl.

anywhoooo
he then began telling me about his superstar status.

how he convinced barack to study law, instead of medicine.
how he helped kobe with his anger problems.
how he turned jennifer aniston down after her consistant nagging.

one-of-a-kind dad.

2009-02-06T19:26:00.000-08:00

i've always wanted to be the 8th s club member.
oh how i love bradley.

knock on wood.

2009-01-26T00:14:00.000-08:00

just for kicks, i checked my horoscope for the year of the ox.

"This is the kind of year you have been waiting for, as everything seems to go your way. Your relations are felt at new levels, as you find a sense of satisfaction that you may not have experienced in a long time. Things you may have thought not possible will become a reality for you in this positive year."

thank you yahoo, i think you made my day. i hope you're right.

2009-01-23T19:21:00.000-08:00

finals are done, and now i can think clearly!
i'd have to say, everything went smoothly,
and my oh my, mr. penhall, you are my angel.
hahaha, and according to mash, my husband.

celebrating with taraneh was great.
sitting on her couch; eating munchies, hot cheetos, and pringles; while watching rocket power
exciting in every way possible.
but then watching another cinderella story, while our self-esteems dropped as selena gomez got the cute boy in the end, kinda put a downer on our party.
haha
we decided to give up chips that day, as a new years resolution.
and along with that, we will be taking yoga every week.
lets see how that goes.

rain felt great today. and walking barefoot in puddles did too.

2009-01-20T17:06:00.000-08:00

so disappointed in people.
friendships in the crapper.
too much to handle before finals.

speculate

2009-01-17T20:31:00.000-08:00

i've noticed the phrase "one person's misfortune is often another person's good fortune" couldn't describe things better. i wish that wasn't how it worked, but the ways of the world, i may never understand. yet, if everyone had good fortune, i'm not sure we'd be mentally or physically prepared for a misfortune. i dont know, i guess i'm searching for reasons.

whaaatta good movie.

2009-01-10T00:04:00.000-08:00

i've been thinking about 08, and as much as i complained every minute of it, it was truly a good year.

heres looking back...

i do have to say that 09 will be a start of new beginning, but also the end of a chapter.

we'll see what's in store for me this year.

resolutions?

2009-01-03T00:05:00.000-08:00

to grow.
to stop overanalyzing.
to always order something different on a menu, keeps life interesting.
to stop being indecisive.
to use the right side of my brain more.
to make things happen for myself.
to get a pet turtle.

2008-12-30T18:34:00.000-08:00

erg are there much perks for being sick?
well i guess getting to watch an endless amount of how i met your mother and eating your body weight in soup are some,
but does it pay off for the throbbing headaches and the ridiculous hallucinations?

i do have to say, the hours before my brothers cold caught on to me were pretty sweet.
got to hang out with dakota and other rc people at downtown disney
ate at fuddruckers and played a very very long game of contact
then went to marians
i sure do love taraneh and melissa's opera voices
but not as much as i love marians cd collection
why has the world forgotten about avril, destiny's child, mandy moore and all that good stuff
fun night

& look out for our version of afternoon delight hah!

2008-12-23T22:05:00.001-08:00

i love the aquarium.

anyone wanna buy me a jelly fish for christmas?

2008-12-19T21:42:00.000-08:00

two beautiful weeks of no school.

i think i've been taking our weather for granted,
i forgot how much i loved the rain, but the fact that i have nothing but flats is kinda a bummer.
but today, my gah, the air smells wonderful.
and thank you aimee for today,
(carbs, hooked on how i met your mother, and several 2 minute sessions of aerobics)
i dont remember the last time i spent a friday out.
HAH
i have a good feeling about this break.
lots of things to do, but there may be enough time!
i am craaaaaving holiday family parties and such.
and for those gracious gift-givers, hold your horses.
i'll be out with gifts asap.

i have to say, my attitude about everything changed.
call it holiday spirit? oh i dont know.
but all i'll say is i hope it stays this way.

and and if anyone wants to lend me their old usher cds...

2008-12-16T16:22:00.000-08:00

good grief, its been a good week.

red cross' holiday project was saturday.

gah i love seeing rc people.
and smiles on kids' faces, can't get any better than that.

brother came home later that day.

i missed that man.

monday was fvhs's choir concert.

i'd say the highlight was mr. tison dropping his baton, but hey thats my opinion.

and thank you marian and taraneh for not letting me forget my mistakes, i love you.

tabula rasa

2008-12-05T17:40:00.000-08:00

I've been thinking about how much change has happened these past couple of months, and I've realized that all this change is making me change as well. While I was worrying about all my friends becoming different people, I didn't get a chance to look at myself. I'm not sure what I see now, but all I know is that I want to just start over. Better yet, tabula rasa. That mister johnny locke is a smart man. I need a blank slate.

I can't help but look back at the good times, when things were simple. I can say that one song spoke to me.

"Oh do you remember

When the family was everything?

Oh do you remember?

It was so long ago and so much has changed

I wanna go back

Wanna go back to those simple days

I wanna go back

But now we've grown and gone our separate ways
Times is hard

And things are a-changin'

I pray to God

That we can remain the same

All I'm trying to say is our love don't have to change

No it don't have to change"

thanks john legend.

and and happy late birthday britney, i'll see you in april! with my mommmm

2008-12-01T19:38:00.000-08:00

twenty five days til christmas.
this video always gets me in a holiday mood.

don't get discouraged by how long it is, just watch!

2008-11-29T23:45:00.000-08:00

i just realized today how much i love spending time with ldc people.

whatta fun ice skating social.
and yes, i accepted the fact that i look like a complete spaz.
it has been awhile since i've had a really long talk with andrea, so i'm glad we got to catch up.
then after a tiring session, we spent the next 4 hours loitering at the block.
corner bakery, and running in and out of toy stores.
i'm glad i got to see all the college kiddies before they left.

and to top it off, i went to a celine dion concert with my mammie and aunt.
hahaha, and she was amazing.
i'm sad i didn't get to see taraneh there, though.

good way to end break. now back to a stressful life of studying and whatnot.

giving thanks

2008-11-26T10:54:00.000-08:00

no matter how cheesy these sound, here i go...

i'm thankful for moments that lighten up my day.
i'm thankful for the ones i got close to at ldc 08.
i'm thankful for a & a, the ones i know who wont change.
i'm thankful for my family, who always seem to be there.
i'm thankful for afternoons with taraneh, where we laugh, eat, watch some lame reality television, and eat some more.
i'm thankful for the few i can count on.
i'm thankful for the ridiculous, yet amazing weather we have.
i'm thankful for my big brothers.
i'm thankful for one of the best summers this year.
& i'm thankful for thanksgiving break.

hahaha thank you!

2008-11-23T21:51:00.000-08:00

i love you.

(thank you famima)

2008-11-22T22:32:00.000-08:00

it's getting cold! ah i love this time of year.

went outlet shopping with mom in sd.

and i just noticed, they're playing christmas music on 103.5 already. its always addicting to listen, until its actually around christmas and i can't stand the songs.

then out and about with autumn, mel, brittbrown, and emily.

oh i've missed hanging with them.

and i might have found what i want for christmas:

2008-11-21T23:50:00.000-08:00

oh how good it feels to be free from school.
even for just a week.

good times with taraneh today.
getting fat on her couch, eating stuffed crust pizza and some chocolate thing from the hut
(i suggest not getting, haha)
i miss days like this; simple, laid back, stress-free days.

and i need a good recipe for scalloped potatoes!

change

2008-11-20T19:20:00.000-08:00

"stop this train

i want to get off

and go home again

i can't take the speed it's moving in

i know i can't

but honestly, won't someone stop this train"

-john mayer

change is one simple fact of life, it occurs indefinitely. but is it always for good? who can say?
while i'm proud to have a new president, that i believe will change our country for the good, i'm not so sure if i want more change.
enough has happened already, i've lost touch with a lot of the ones i thought i was closest to, stress from school is taking a toll on me, and the friends i knew best are now changing into people i barely know. is this what comes along with being a teenager in high school? if so, let me move back in time.
along with all this stress, i have come to realize that this world is a sad place, and my pessimism does not make it any better. i used to believe the phrase "ignorance is bliss" was something completely false, but now i dont know what to think.
i guess i'm going to have to suck it up, because honestly, there's nothing i can do to stop "change". but i just hope the closest people i have now will stay true to themselves, and stay the people i became friends with.

and and thank you a & a. i'm sure you know who you are.